I’m writing inside this morning after my early morning exploration in nature. When I woke up just after 5, I heard driving rain against my bedroom window. Immediately, I knew I had to get up and outside as soon as possible. You see, as Autumn and Winter draw in, the weather will only get wilder, … Continue reading Dress for the weather →

Dear Matt, I’m writing this letter to you from 13 years in the future. We're 31 now. That probably sounds really old, but actually it’s not. Apparently our hair is going grey, but I refuse to believe it. Guess what… You’re a dad! Our greatest ambition in life achieved. Well done, bud. You stayed the … Continue reading Letter to my 18 year old self →

I slept terribly last night. My dreams were obscure and intense; a clear sign my mind was wrestling with an array of clumsy thoughts and abstractions. It means this morning I have woken filled with chaotic energy. I haven’t managed to get outside into nature to journal like I always do. I couldn’t make sense … Continue reading Growth, pain, complexity, ADHD →

I’m on the hill this morning and sporting a sexy new head torch. Unfortunately it says ‘head torch’ in comic sans in massive lettering along the band. Luckily, it’s an accessory made for the dark. Nature smells amazing this morning. It rained last night and now the water is evaporating in the warmer, early morning … Continue reading Ego vs Self: stand-off →

I’ve arrived at the last two pages of my first ever journal. It feels like a momentous occasion. A genuine achievement. Every word written on these pages has been a step forward on my journey of self-discovery. I’ve learnt so much and had so many experiences during this short time spent writing. It makes me … Continue reading The final passage of my first journal →

It’s cold this morning. For the first time since I started journalling I can feel a harsh chill on my face as I sit here and write. I haven’t got much on my mind. I can feel a slight apprehension poking around inside me which is causing my thoughts to slip and slide. There’s a … Continue reading A powerful meditation →

This morning I’m sitting on the platform at the local train station in Moreton-in-Marsh. I was hoping to spend time people watching, but the few early risers who were here have all boarded the 05:51 to London Paddington. The next train isn’t due for an hour, so it looks like I’m on my own. It’s … Continue reading In-between trains →

I’m staying at my parents for a few days. This morning I’m searching out the sunrise like I always do. I pointed myself east with the help of the compass on my iPhone and walked for about 20 minutes beyond the limits of Moreton-in-Marsh. I’ve ended up in a spot looking out over an expansive … Continue reading In 50 years, I’ll be 81 →

I managed to meditate for around 10-minutes this morning. Focusing on the mantra helped me to stay present, but I still found my mind wandering and at times working against me to try and force my eyes open. People say it’s natural for the mind to wander while meditating. What’s important is that when you … Continue reading Becoming a bridge builder →

Yesterday I received a message from someone of which read in-part, ‘I’m really claustrophobic, but only because there’s too much going on in my head to fit into small places.’anonymous It was such a poetic description of something that person wasn’t sure anyone else would understand. I understood. I felt it deeply. When we let … Continue reading Brain, body, nature →